Feb 6, 2008

on a roll

so things just keep on changing.
at the beginning of the year I asked to hear a word from God, to let me know what i'm to do because the ministry, intouch, has so much to do with where i am in my spiritual life and possibly where i need to be.

today i told my group that i would be saying goodbye to the professional aspect of our relationship. we'll still be homies/fam but it will be different and i will miss a unique dynamic. but alongside the feeling of mournful assurance is a familiar emotion. excitement.

I feel like i did in my last months before i graduated from Andrews. i'm supposed to do something else with my life. offer up myself to some greater purpose where i will be able to give freely, willingly, whole-heartedly and make it all about Him. this could be the journey of a lifetime. so many little adventures but this here? dunno. it could be the platform for...dunnoooooooooo. i'm sounding all hippy-ish cuz i read this in my oswald chambers devo this morning.

"Tell God you are ready to be offered and God will prove Himself to be all you ever dreamed He would be."

of course i'm like, " ¿when homie when?" so i think it might be a while and i hope i am in fact ready for His answer.

it sounds too good to be true and mad cheesy but if it is i can only benefit from giving up self to something greater than just me. granted i'm crazy scared but... onward!...to infinity and beyond. lol.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

sometimes it takes people years to get where you are. . . at least you feel ready to hear what the plans are that He has for you. . . and your not running like others have done in the past!
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TIP TOP said...

you won't be dissappointed jambi! God will do great things just because you are willing. :D

NO THEFT said...

Girl, He is making your heart more and more into Gold, it's so lovely!
You are in this place that paul talks about in romans, This is you girl!

Romans 12:1-2 "1offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God—this is your spiritual[a] act of worship.

2Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.